Whoa....It's been way too long!

Okay...so it's been 4 months since I last wrote. I'm happy to say I haven't gained a ton of weight back and I'm pretty happy with myself. I've been ranging between 155-158 pounds (depending how much I pig out). I feel good about myself (except for my big butt still), but am finding myself falling back into old habits. I plan to start back on track tomorrow, mostly with exercize and following a sensible diet, but not being crazy about it.
I had surgery on April 6th to remove a large fibroid. I was out of commission for two months to recover. I was so afraid I'd gain a ton of weight, but I actually ended my recovery at my lightest, 153 pounds. I did reach 151 once after puking my guts out as a result of a bad reaction to pain medication two days afte the surgery. However, I gained that back and for the past couple of weeks haven't been watching what I've been eating. In fact, this past week has been really bad. In fact, I had Taco Bell on Thursday night and McDonald's on Friday. Jared and I went camping Friday and Saturday and ate too much: hot dogs, S'mores, beans, cheese & crackers, sausage, bacon, etc. So....needless to say, I need to get back on track. I have been working out a bit. I started running around town again, which I really do enjoy once I get myself going. It's just getting myself out the door that's the proboem. I bought some cute running clothes that does make me feel better about myself. I did pay for the gym this month and plan to use it. I like the different machines, plus I'll need it on rainy or too hot days.
So...here's the plan. I'm going to have one final S'more tonight and then get on track tomorrow. I'll hopefully go running if the weather's nice or I'll go to the gym. Plus, I'll go to Stop & Shop and get my salad stuff. I'm not going to do Nutrisystem, although I'd like to. It's just too expensive. So...I'm hoping by writing my blog again will help me to get the motivation I did last time. We'll see how tomorrow goes!

Just pigged out

I haven't written in a while and I wonder if that's why my motivation has been lacking. I haven't been horrible, but I'm less motivated. Jared and I got our taxes done today and since we were down in Groton, we went to Chilis. I had a BBQ pork pulled sandwich with fries. It was delicious. I didn't think I'd want anything else to eat today, but I started getting hungry around 7pm so I made a pb&j sandwich and had my NS cheese puffs and a Mt. Dew. Tomorrow I must get back on track! I was doing so well too. I was down to 157 last week. This morning I was 158.4. I'm very happy with the weight loss, but I still want to lose more and I want my motivation back! I need to be strong. I need to do this for me. I feel great when I eat healthy and work out, so why do I do this to myself? I planned to go to workout today, but I was so tired and I talked myself out of it. Not tomorrow though! Tomorrow I return to my former glory! I will work out and eat right and drink all my water! As God as my witness...I will be strong and I will lose more weight!

It's been a while...feeling not so motivated

I haven't made a post in a few days. My motivation has definitely been lacking. I've been sticking to the plan for the most part, but haven't seen the scale move in almost a week, so I've been discouraged. I'm at a healthy weight for my height, but I was hoping to have lost more by now. My second shipment is on its way and my husband is also on NS so I'm hoping I'll start to feel excited again. I went to the gym for an hour today and am on the verge of my first "perfect day" since Thursday. Hopefully I'll be able to resist snacking until I go to bed in a couple of hours. Here's what I ate today:

Breakfast: sweetened o's cereal, grapefruit, 1 fried egg

Lunch: chocolate caramel bar (delicious!), carrots & mushrooms w/fat-free ranch, yogurt

Snack: yogurt, orange

Dinner: cheese & spinach ravioli, asparagus, summer squash, apple, pistachios, Coke Zero

Dessert: chocolate fudge bar (so yummy!)

I've also drank 76 oz. of water, so I've been peeing a lot, which sucks as usual. Anyway...hoping I'll feel better soon.

One Month Later

I sat here a month ago determined to lose weight. I wasn't sure if I could do it, but I have. I've lost 10 pounds since starting this little journey 30 days ago. I haven't always been perfect and some days have been easier than others, but I'm down 10 pounds, so I'm happy. My pants fit again and I feel a little better about myself. Too bad I let myself go these past few months because I'm right back where I started from. The good thing is that I didn't let it get out of control and I was able to lose the weight. I do have a feeling this is the weight my body's meant to be at. I would like to lose another 10-20 pounds, but if I don't, I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I just need to keep eating right most of the time and exercising. Jared started nutrisystem again, so we're doing it together, although it's expensive. He needs to lose weight and I want to support him.

Today was a good day, although I just indulged to a craving. I had some pretzels and a 60 calorie cup of sugar free pudding. I needed some salt and chocolate. Sometimes I have no cravings, but other times, it's hard, like tonight. I wish I was stronger.

Before I went to get my hair cut and highlighted today, I dragged my butt to the gym. I did 40 minutes on the arc trainer and ran a mile on the treadmill. Here's what I ate today:

Breakfast: nutrifrosted cereal with blueberries, 1 fried egg, grapefruit
Lunch: ministrone soup, carrots & mushrooms with ranch, yogurt
Snack: yogurt, orange
Dinner: BBQ chicken wrap, asparagus, yellow squash, kiwi, pistachios
Dessert: peanut butter cookie
Indulgence: pretzels and pudding

I hope I can really get motivated again soon. I'm hanging in there, but not willingly.

Husband's On Board

So Jared ordered his Nutrisystem last night. He did it about a year ago and had great results, but has gained his weight back. I think it'll be fun doing this together. His shipment shipped out today so hopefully it'll be here soon.

Today was a good day in regards to NS. I really didn't crave anything today and I went two the gym after a two day hiatus. I spent 35 minutes on the arc trainer and 25 minutes on the treadmill (ran two miles and walked 5 minutes to cool down). Here's what I ate:

Breakfast: chocolate muffin (I heated it up and it was VERY good and oh so chocolatey), blackberries, yogurt, diet cran-grape juice
Snack: blueberries mixed with vanilla yogurt
Lunch: chocolate caramel bar (it was delicious, almost like a candy bar), carrots & mushrooms with fat-free ranch, yogurt (I saved this till around 3pm so I'd have energy for the gym.)
Dinner: meatloaf & mashed potatoes (I was nervous to try it after viewing some negative reviews on it, but it wasn't too bad), asparagus, ocra (I'd never had it any way but fried, but it was pretty good steamed), strawberries, pistachios
Snack: Haven't decided yet, but I'm thinking a cookie or perhaps I'll try the strawberry shortcake.

My lunch is all packed and ready for tomorrow. Hopefully it's another good day.

Feelin' Good!

Jared got home today from spending two weeks visiting family in Arizona. It's good to have him home. The house was getting lonely. I had really wanted to go to the 99 tonight for dinner, but I'm now glad Jared wasn't up to going out so I wouldn't mess up my day. He wants to support me in this journey and I'm very grateful for that. He wants to start up NS again too so we can do it together. I drank a bunch of water yesterday and I think it paid off. I was down to 162 pounds today. That's nine pounds since I began this journey 22 days ago. I'm really happy about that. My jeans that were a little snug weren't so snug today and that felt good. I almost didn't go to the gym, but at 4:45pm I decided I'd better go. I began on the treadmill with the intentions of only running two miles and then switching to the arc trainer. Plans changed though and I as I ran, my stamina was good and I wanted to keep going. It became a game with me and the treadmill. Each time a mile would pass I'd challenge myself to keep going, so I did. I ended up running 5 miles without stopping in 48 minutes. My speed never went below 6mph and I occasionally went up to 8mph. It felt so good. I havne't run like that in a while. I'm sure I won't be able to do it tomorrow, but it felt good today! Here's what I ate:

Breakfast: blueberry pancakes with sugar-free syrup (so good!), grapefruit, yogurt, diet cran-grape juice
Lunch: hot dog on a light, wheat bun with mustard and onions, mushrooms and carrots with fat-free ranch, yogurt
Snack: orange and string cheese
Dinner: chili (very, very good!), asparagus, zuchinni, kiwi, pistachios, Diet Dr. Pepper Cherry
Dessert: peanut butter cookie

I was very happy with the chili. I was nervous to try it because it looked small, but it was surprisingly filling and delicious. The peanut butter cookie was a nice way to end the day. Here's to another day down!

Another day on NS

I guess I would call today successful. I stuck to the plan, except Renee brought in a protein bar she made, which I ate before I worked out. It was so delicious. It was 200 calories, so I'm trying to not have a NS dessert tonight, although I want one. I'll just keep drinking water to keep my stomach full and the hunger at bay. I really didn't want to go to the gym today, but I did go and ended up doing 30 minutes on the eliptical and 15 minutes on the treadmill. I always feel good after I go, even when it's hard to actually drag myself there. Here's what I ate today:

Breakfast: nutricinnamon square cereal, banana, yogurt, diet cran-grape juice
Snack: yogurt & strawberries
Lunch: chicken caesar salad, tomatoes & mushrooms with fat-free ranch, yogurt
Dinner: wedged potatoes and beef, broccoli, asparagus, strawberries, pistachios
Dessert: Renee's portein bar

The wedged potatoes and beef are really good with broccoli. I've had it before and if you mix it together it's really tasty. I've also drank a ton of water, which has kept me in the bathroom throughout the day, but oh well.